Monday, May 31, 2010

Thinking about a tattoo


I was thinking about ... whats the word... its not enlarge it but more of like continuing it, yea, continuing my tattoo all the way to the base back...

i was thinking of getting a tattoo on the back - lower back actually...

but now... it feels better to continue my original tattoo, cause it ends at the shoulder, so it could just continue, and then creep all the way to the base back, and there it could grow more leaves and stuff.... i wonder though...

i know where to get it already - in ShangRi - La, at the gene tensta pierce and tattoo shop... looks good...

i dont know though if its a good idea to get it now when my thoughts and emotions are all in turmoil... although i know i wont regret it...

ahhhhh, suck me please till i have nothing left to give.

just

From a friends Status message:

The Communist Creed :
From each according to their ability, to each according to their need
The Capitalist Creed:
From each according to their gullibility, to each according to their greed

-
the infamous Joe Stack

Te Amo.

Te Amo

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what more can i say.

i am a frustrated Bisexual.

FEAR

Fear (Acronym) From a Page on Facebook

F - Fuck
E - Everything
A - And
R- Run

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

have to come up with the opposite. Brave, meh... got to put the thinking cap on.

......

Sunday, May 30, 2010

From a Guy

My male cousin (whom i havent seen in 15+ years) wrote in his status message on facebook:

"There is such a thing as too much beauty in a woman and it is often a
burden as crippling as homeliness and far more dangerous. It takes much
luck and integrity to survive the gift of perfect beauty, and its
impermanence is its most cunning betrayal."

i wonder... does he even know what this means? lol.

Too much of something or too little... sure, this could affect your life, but it is what you do with it that counts... when you know that you are beautiful, shouldn't you be humble, be thankful that most people view you as pretty?
It is what you do with what you have, no matter how much or how little it is that matters most.
Some would blame it on their birth (lack of privilege), parents, physical looks, lack of brains, other people - - - - but then, other people who have what they think they should have in order to succeed aren't happy either... so... really...

We should find out what makes us happy - and try to achieve that... trying to be contented and happy with what we have but still striving to improve our situations is hard - but possible, and maybe thats the journey we have to take in our lives. I guess also... learning the things that are important, and learning to let go... when you learn to let go of the thing that you value the most... it makes you stronger... seriously. though no one should take my word for it... but just one of these wisdom shit that popped up when i was dreaming. :|

I've learned it the hard way... still trying to come to terms to the challenges that life is bringing... trying to be free without hindering other people's freedom... and its a great journey... its wonderful.

I love my life... i love you.

Ps: Im no great writer, sometimes my thoughts are jumbled, and i just try to type it out, id rather write it on paper, but my boyfriend said its archaic - but i still do. though sometimes this is easier - when im already in front of the computer 18 hours a day : )

The Waiting Game


People would probably say they want to be in my shoes right now, and most people would answer be my guest, my life is so fucking difficult you wouldn't really want to be in it. But i wouldn't, i love my life in general, though i find it really difficult to deal with the waiting game right now.
My friends are telling me - im being very very bitchy... but they're my friends so they're still there even though im being very hard to be with.

Nothing to do but hang on. Dose of reality, hoping every morning and getting it crushed at the end of the day sucks ass.

But still here... still hoping... i wonder how long its gonna last?

bleh.